I’m in a pretty big dilemma!
I have been thinking of going to Uni since last October when it came to mind that I really love books and when I was a kid I wanted to be a librarian. I’ve been working full time for the last 10 years in a profession that I only chose to help my family with their business. I needed money and they needed a baker. Problem solved.
But at that time I didn’t know what I wanted to be. All of this pressure in school, needing to know everything that you want to learn without really knowing what you want out of life, getting to know who you are as a person before the clock runs out, is too stressful.
The lockdowns have given me back time to be with myself. To figure out what I want. To figure out what my place is in this world. Now that I’ve realised what I want there’s even more pressure 🙈
I can’t stop working because I need money for bills, my family need me working most days because of the pandemic and the lack of staff, and I don’t want to let them down even if it means giving up an opportunity to better my future.
I figure there’s only one way to find out if I can do this. First there’s two essays I need to send in to prove I’m “worthy” of the course. Second, I need to wait to hear back from the Uni just in case I don’t get in. And lastly, I need to tell my family and hope that we can make this work.
Wish me luck x